We’ve just had an Embercombe Council weekend, I hold the female seat for healers. I experience the healing aspect of this seat in the widest sense, not just representing healers, but the need for healing across the planet, and Embercombe’s part in that. The idea that underpins holding the seat, is that I speak when it feels there is something that needs to be said from the seat I’m representing, rather than from myself.
This is my first year on the Council and I have been feeling my way into this seat. To step aside from my own voice and speak only when I feel moved from somewhere deep and collective, waiting until words want to emerge, rather than thinking of something to say.
Yet, as I do this my ‘I’ is often reflecting and engaging with the different topics of conversation. And so it is a dance of hearing, listening, emptying out, feeling, staying centred, keeping the presence of the seat alive, holding a still space inside me for this, and then allowing thoughts to emerge . This process continues beyond the Council sessions.
On Saturday we had conversations around the things that concerned us most in the world and whether our work within Council should continue beyond our meetings and lead to action in the world. One of the Council members introduced the brave subject of how we bring the soft, gentle, loving energy within us, and weave it with the fiery energy, the energy that can kill, but chooses not to; in a way that can honor the Embercombe mission – touching hearts, stimulating minds, and inspiring committed action for a truly sustainable world.
I awoke on Sunday morning as the sun came up and watched as clouds began to part to let patches of blue sky emerge. Outside my cabin are trees with new spring leaf growth. The green branches were being swayed by the breeze and golden sparks of sunlight wove through. It was mesmerising to watch this tapestry. As I was watching I found myself sinking down into the female seat of healers, what it represented and reflected on the two concerns I had brought the day before – soil depletion and loss of the rain forests.
I realised that I don’t experience myself as separate from nature, I feel towards the natural world as I do towards my own family and friends – deep care. When I see the images of rainforest deforestation, the ground bare and barren, I feel it as if it were my own body, or the body of someone I love.
On this golden sparkling morning as I moved deeper into a feeling of the female Council seat I felt three things, grief at the thought of the human destruction upon the world, rage that could kill but chooses not to, and a deep peace and connection to the natural world outside my cabin. I felt deeply into this feeling of connection with nature and found that the feminine with the psyches of both men and women, and nature, felt to be one and the same.
As I held the grief and the rage metaphorically in the palm of each hand and emersed myself into the deep peace, I felt these three things. Complete connection to the absolute joy and abundance of nature, it’s ancient and timeless quality. Grief at the human destruction of this, along with a rage that didn’t want to kill but did want something. I asked what? What is wanted here?
The words that came into my head were reconciliation and healing. Then I had two visions. The first was of a process of reconciliation acted out over and over again, publicly, across the world. Where the decision makers of organisations and governments that are making choices that are destroying our planet, move through a process of reconciliation with those of us who feel moved to stand and represent our planet’s ecosystem. I realised this is not likely to happen soon because before reconciliation can come there has to be acknowledgement of what is being done.
I often feel very small in relation to organisations and governments that make choices or act in a way that harms the earth, but as I stood in the place of stillness, holding grief and rage in each hand, I didn’t feel small anymore. I realised that organisations and governments are made up of people. And people can make different choices, when there is a big enough field in the collective consciousness wanting it. So how about raising awareness in a way that touches hearts and stimulates minds? How about creating that field in our collective consciousness. How about staging these reconciliations with actors playing the parts we cannot find government or organisational leaders to take up, all over the world, with good media coverage?
The second vision was in relation to healing. I often have big ideas that on my own I can’t carry off and end up not following through on them. So I wondered what small thing I could do, what small thing could lots of people do, that amount to a big thing and perhaps, a really big thing.
I thought, well I can go out and find myself one metre square of land and dig it, and tend to it, put compost in it, grow something in it, take care of it. If it gets trashed, do it again, and again and again. If my access to this small piece of our Earth is blocked to me I can move to another piece of land and do the same thing, but every day take myself to this square metre of earth and give healing and prayer to it. This doesn’t have to be in a formal way, it can be as simple as just digging a metre square of earth and being with it each day for 5 minutes, it can be whatever I make it to be.
Just imagine if 10 people did this from the same area, if a hundred people did this across a region then others joined them, a thousand, a million across the globe, a billion. Imagine how that would look from above. What an incredible collective message it would send out into our collective psyche and how powerful the prayer of this would be for the Earth, if we kept on doing it, over and over again.
And so I wanted to ask if anyone feels drawn to either of these visions, to help me realise them?
Lucy – female seat of healers, Embercombe